Dear Diary- 12/19/12
This will be my last entry for Samantha’s journey. In lieu of flowers, for Samantha’s passing Jeremy came up with the most wonderful idea to honor Samantha. He said we should get a brick or a bench at the zoo, which would be something she would have thought of most definitely. The trickle of cards and gifts has come to a stop and it is time to read through them once again. Beautiful and caring words have adorned each and every card and note that we received, and my heart has been touched. Sending out thank you cards seem so trivial in comparison to all of the love that we have been shown.
This year is coming to an end and a new year will start bringing each of us new roads for us to travel. We each have our own journey, destination, or path to glory. For me, I think mine has just begun, a new journey, filled with exciting outcomes. I have to say I’m a little scared because I feel my past has always had a purpose, taking care of Jeremy and Samantha. Of course, Jeremy is grown with children of his own that I hope to share many moments with in the years to come. And I know that Samantha is busy being a Guardian Angel. So what does lie ahead for me? What will this new purpose be? I guess only tomorrow knows exactly what will be in store for me. I guess tomorrow will bring the challenges I need to keep me strong. I guess tomorrow will be the day that I remember to continue to thank God for. One thing I am sure of, tomorrow will remind me that Samantha’s life here on earth was filled with unbelievable challenges. And with those challenges she never faltered, she never veered from her path, always, always showing love and generosity. I can only hope that I can live up to her legacy and continue where she left off, although how I feel right now this very moment those are pretty big shoes to fill.
I would like to thank you for the opportunity to share Samantha’s story through my eyes and my heart. God bless each and every one of you.